Its a whole new experience, staying with the in-laws. Its never the same as my old place, with my mum and dad. But, like they all say, home is where the heart is.

And its right here, with my hubby. =)

Things have been quite messy at work with the plans of shifting coming in June. The renewal of shift rosters, new colleagues, new but not moving over with us colleagues from JGH etc.

And I’ve also decided to apply for further studies. Its something which I have been thinking for for a while now. But severely lacking in financial support, particularly after the wedding as well as the coming new home.

What made me changed my usual way of doing things, which is to be fully prepared with funds before embarking on any thing major in life, can be attributed to a few people.

Of course, one of which is Marvin. His “don’t ask why, just do it” mentality may be rash at times, but it does make sense sometimes.

He often says, “how often do people speak of great plans, but never ever get down to doing it?”  And most of the time, the more you ponder over something, the more deterrents you get.

Which is something that is extremely true for me. I think too much and chicken out at the end.

However, the person who showed me that all this is possible is none other than AFGA. The treasurer of SSR who is now pursuing her PhD. She had no funds, just a very clear picture of what she wants.

She went through her masters, despite of the lack of funds, despite of the lack of time, despite of having the sacrifice family time. And she made it happen all in the end.

She spent years working and studying, waking up and arriving at work before the sun rises, and staying back in NUS, doing her assignments, taking her exams, going back home after the sun sets. All these while handling audits at work, rostering and other responsibilities, as well as accounts of SSR. She just a amazing person, whose drive and focus can’t be found anywhere else.

I’m not certain if I can be like her. But she showed me and there is really no such thing as impossible.

Thank you AFGA. I will miss having you around during meetings and stuff. But i just needed you to know that you have touched at least one person in your life and that is me.

Never give up that spirit woman!

For those of you who haven’t heard.

Yes, I’m getting married.

To him.

He’s a cock.

But I love you baby. =)

Recently I find myself rethinking through the same questions.

“What am I working for? Why is it that I no longer feel the same about the job as I felt before?”

The feeling is inadequate, yet I’m feeling torn between the urgency to upgrade my skills/knowledge, and whether or not am I cut out for this.

It seems that I entered this line with everything, happy that I’m doing something that I like.

But that feelings’ lost along the way.

Sometimes I cant wait to get off work, sometimes I feel guilty of leaving when I could have stayed/put in more effort.

Its really frustrating at times.

Its that same sense of loss. Maybe its just the usual dwelling and burrowing into your emotions even further.

Like what someone has said, “Since you’re here, just do what you have to to the best you can.”

Yea, i think that’s good advice. =)

” How do you that he’s the one?”

Most of people will just answer,  “oh, the feeling’s right i guess. And the timing’s right to get married.”

Caught slightly off-guard by her question, I blabbered. Mostly nonsense, but i guess there are some points to it.

“Despite being together for a short time, some will put it as “shotgun”. And NO, I’m not pregnant. But I guess you do sort of know.

Its not about how good his personality is, how much he earns, how learned he is.

Its not about doing the craziest things together, spending every moment with your heart thumping, palms sweating.

If you can find joy doing the most simple things together with that person, yet being totally as ease, what else can you ask for?

Even a spending a lazy sunday morning together, drinking coffee having breakfast, then spreading yourselves out on the floor reading newspapers can be fun.

You know he’s the one when you don’t feel that you need to entertain him just by doing outrageous things. Even though that serves up as nice surprises sometimes. =)

To put flatly, if you can fart, dig your nose, *insert other disgusting hygiene habits* without hesistation in front of this other person, he’s the one. HAHAHA

At the end of the day, what i’m trying to say, is that if you 2 are able to enjoy each other’s company despite the most boring shite ever, or doing the most mind boggling  job/assignment/event ever, or even something both of you hate most. You’ve basically tested the lowest bottom limit.

Yep, that’s my answer. =)

Daphne’s answer was somewhat along the lines of

” if you guys can plan and travel together without going at each others’ throat. You’re made for each other. LOL”

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A bad sign of auntism.

and i’m waiting in the MRI room again for the OT case to start. =_=

*yawns

just maybe.

That my little sista has grown.

From that raw little seed, to a bud that is emerging, showing off that peek of the first blush, to blossom in full glory in time that is soon to come.

You are beautiful and amazing in so many ways. Remember that girl.

=)

Hang on Little Tomato by Pink Martini

The sun has left and forgotten me
It’s dark, I cannot see
Why does this rain pour down
I’m gonna drown
In a sea
Of deep confusion

Somebody told me, I don’t know who
Whenever you are sad and blue
And you’re feelin’ all alone and left behind
Just take a look inside and you will find

You gotta hold on, hold on through the night
Hang on, things will be all right
Even when it’s dark
And not a bit of sparkling
Sing-song sunshine from above
Spreading rays of sunny love

Just hang on, hang on to the vine
Stay on, soon you’ll be divine
If you start to cry, look up to the sky
Something’s coming up ahead
To turn your tears to dew instead

And so I hold on to his advice
When change is hard and not so nice
You listen to your heart the whole night through
Your sunny someday will come one day soon to you

all the planning, hideous running about the places to look for materials, emotional rollercoaster rides, fighting the mozzies at MOG….. i will have to say that its all worth it to see the place done up so beautifully on that day.

The sun was particularly good, the mozzies were particularly active, the birds were particularly having good bowels (but the MOG pple took care of that), the helpers were particularly efficient, the guests were particularly early, the JP was particularly funny, the flower boy and girl are particularly cute, the bride was particularly beautiful and the groom was particularly sweet.

It was all a particularly, exquisitely beautiful wedding.

Its just no wonder why people tear at weddings.

Its really a totally different feeling seeing someone who matters to you, has found happiness with another someone, who feels the same way too.

Congrats Jf and Vitor!

I’m sure it’s a day that both of you will remember for life.